Romantic Break Up Letter
“I wonder why heartbreaks can make you bitter – really really bitter sometimes. And I wish I wouldn’t have to feel this way.”
At one point I thought you were that man who ruined everything I dreamed of in a marriage. You were the man who drained that last drop of hope I had in my glass.
You were that one guy who gave me the same perception of all men – that all men are the same, that when your “unbecoming you” starts to turn them off, they will leave you eventually. They won’t stick around. They won’t love you no matter what. When you become unlikable they will leave you for that.
Am I making sense right now? Or am I just one of the many whose heartbreak has taken over their entire life?
I wonder why heartbreaks can make you bitter – really really bitter sometimes. And I wish I wouldn’t have to feel this way.
You really are a nice guy. I hope you know that. You are the kindest person I’ve known. You are pure at heart and slow to anger. You provide well for your family. You love them so much and that’s something I admire so much about you.
You are a very responsible person and you always see everything in perspective. I know and I feel how much you love me. You may not be that sweet and showy and touchy but you have always been very thoughtful.
I think we just have outgrown each other. We discovered we have different likes as the years go by and somehow, all these little differences made us incompatible.
Or perhaps when we were in love, the differences didn’t matter and as we are falling out of love, we realized that we are totally different persons and our differences become irreconcilable.
Or maybe this is just how I want to justify our breakup where in fact, it really sucked. I was a terrible mess. I was bending down on my knees just so you could hear me out because I’m literally begging you to take me back.
I was so pathetic. I pitied myself. I was a loser. I know. You said so yourself.
But I already had enough. I know at the back of my mind that there is no way we could fix this. And even in as much as I would like to work things out with you, I know it’s not possible anymore. Because even in those times that we were holding on, we know within us that we already gave up.
There are just things I wish I told you a long time ago when you still openly listen to me. There came a time when you just shut me out and never wanted to hear anything I say. Maybe you just reached your saturation point. I just made a mess out of our relationship and I wish I could have said I’m sorry in person for everything I did that made you turn your back on me.
I wish we could still talk some time but I already accepted that it will never happen. Or maybe it might happen but I’m not wasting my time thinking about it. I already got over it. I know I have to get over it and move on with my life.
I realized that what is keeping me from moving on is the fact that I wasn’t still able to forgive myself for hurting you. There is still a part of me that wanted to apologize to you in person and look you in the eyes and tell you how sincerely sorry I am for all the things I did that had hurt you.
I love you. I still do. I still think about you all the time. But don’t worry I’m not going to bother you anymore. I love you but it’s the end of it.
I wish you all the happiness in the world. I don’t want to be bitter anymore. I want to forgive you for giving up on me. I want you to be happy with someone else. I want me to be happy seeing you happy with someone else.
I hope one day I will be able to see you without me crying or feeling pained or being hurt just the sight of you holding someone else.
I hope I will be able to move on without you in my life. Goodbye. I will never forget you…